I knew how this movie ended. I make it a point not to watch movies where I know that the lead character dies. I hate it when I accidentally watch movies like that - but this one, I watched on purpose. I have no idea why. It was an excellent movie - and it left me devastated. The only other time that I felt like that was when I watched City of Angels. It affects me when terrible or hard things happen to people and they have absolutely no one or nothing to call on. They survive. But they don't live. Because it takes so much to simply MAKE IT that once they are years past the event, they are often just a shadow of what they were before. I watched interviews of Marianne Pearl right after her husbands death and then with Angelina Jolie 5 years later and you can see how hard it is still. Of course it is - but my heart is broken because I felt like she was still all alone. I can't imagine what it would be like for me if I lost Carlos, but I know I could immediately turn to my Father in Heaven and I EXPECT healing and comfort and I do not feel alone. I know that I am speaking from a place that I don't know anything about but I can't shake the feeling of utter despair when I watch her. I came away with an "awareness" of two things after watching the movie - I am so very blessed in the relationship that I have with my Father in Heaven - and there are those who are carrying a burden that no one should ever have to walk with alone and they don't even know it.
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